About myself

I thought I would tell you about me & how I became a medium. It is a long and twisted journey. I actually did not know but I played with my spirit guides as a child. Would forsake my friends for my imaginary friends who I didn't understand how my friends couldn't see them. The were two kangaroos. I mama and her baby. Kanga & Roo. I learn now it was my Protector Guide John & my joy guide Roo. A fairy. Coming to me as a child would feel comfortable seeing them, playing with them and telling their secrets to them. All of which I did. Gladly. Life was always such a turmoil. My father was abusive from the day I was born. He burned me, dislocated my elbow at age 2, kidnapped me from my mother during their divorce at age 5, and was just verbally and physically abusive what I saw of him my entire life. Because my parents were non-existent at being present in my life I was molested from age 8-12 by three different people. Because of this I thought it was how you were loved. I became promiscuous in high school. Pretty much told my parents how things were going to be. Especially since most of the time I was going to school and sometimes holding a full-time job. I wasn't being given the attention a child deserves t strive for their dreams. I applied for college early my sophomore year and with my grades so good got an early acceptance to college if I kept my grades as they were. Yet I never told my parents. I only asked if I was going to get help paying for college. My father told me to wait until I was 40 like he did and pay for it myself. By the way he was a Bank President by then. With the financial means to help a child through college and my mother said I will pay for your books. Paying for my books was not going to help me pay for an out of state school. Life went down hill after that. I ended up getting pregnant at 17 and married 9 days after my 18th birthday. All I really wanted to do was take my baby and go to college and do it on my own. But I just didn't have any belief in myself. I wasn't raised with any. I was married to a very controlling man for 22 years. I knew he loved me more than anything but we were children. I also was undiagnosed bipolar and PTSD our entire marriage. In fact I was diagnosed depressed for parts especially the end when I got sick with reflex sympathetic dystrophy. The worst nerve disorder known to doctors causing extreme pain as well as a host of other side effects. Treating a bi-polar patient with depression medication is horrid. It makes their symptoms more pronounced. Yet it was ignored. It wasn't until I had a nervous breakdown after losing my dad only 5 months after leaving my husband that I finally got the help I needed a few months later. I had just broke. It started the change in my life. When I was up in Oregon I was out at one of our State Parks and was taking a picture of a bird and got a picture of a spirit. Its not the first time I have been near spirit. I knew I had gift if they were trying to contact me but had no idea what to do. Then one day I was drawn to discount to a school for mediums that was accredited. I had to try. I knew it was time and it was calling me. The things I learned I could do was mind blowing. I had no idea God had blessed me with being able to give people these messages. I find it a blessing and gift from God to be able to deliver the messages. I thank God he opened the path for me to see where I am supposed to be.