So Grateful

As I am preparing to leave to spend my holidays in Oregon I am reflecting at how grateful I am for this past year and for all I really have. I am looking forward to a peaceful & love filled holiday & hope to bring some joy to my ex-husband. That's what I most hope to accomplish on this trip. Holidays when we were married were not always peaceful and happy. There were fights and stress. And I realize how petty it all was. Of course we were two different people then. All I want to do for Christmas is make amazing food & eat & watch movies. A little snuggling on the couch will be in order. As I am grateful for all I have been given. My illness is better so I am able to fly. I am have found my calling this year after a lifetime of searching for what it is I am supposed to do. There are some people that never find what they are looking for. I have been so blessed to have been called to be a light worker for God. And I promise that I was far from your bible thumping Christian. I didn't attend church since childhood really. A couple times when I was married I tried to find a church that fit my needs but never found one I could call home. I had firmly held beliefs though.  I never doubted there was a God. Even when I got diagnosed with my disease. I was angry with him & didn't understand and went through the "Why me". But I never doubted my God. The things I have learned opening myself to the gifts I kept closed off from for so long. Have changed my world. I understand the lessons we are here to learn now. There is no longer a "Why me" its "Why not Me". Its my lesson to learn. And having access to my Spirit Guides and Angels is a blessing that cant be ignored. Everyone has the ability its opening yourself up to your individual gifts. We are not all alike. Every medium is not alike. We all work differently. We see things differently. But we all must be grateful for our lessons and the gifts in this life we have. Because if you look deep into your soul you know your better because of them. Love & Light to you All.